Completely Beautiful, Completely NO!

Dreamworld

Have you ever had one of those dreams that you wake up from and instantly go, "Now why can't that happen in real life, but at the same time.....NO! That's not what I want!"

I had one of those last night.  Yeah.  Most dreams like that that I have revolve around guys, and getting together with them.  I've only had two such dreams.  Both of them completely lovely when I was having them (albeit this one last night was a tinge off kilter because he claimed in the dream that he worked at Pizza Hut, something he does not do - to my knowledge - in real life...) but then when I wake, I'm immediately left thinking, "NO!  That's not my goal!"

I'm not going to deny that I would like a boyfriend/future husband right now.  However, something completely unexpected is going to have to happen if it's the plan for me to get married in the next couple years.  I don't make this plan!  He does.  And I'm nowhere close to a boyfriend, though so much of me would like to be.

But... do I really want to be, or is it just something else talking?

Realworld

It's Super Bowl Sunday.  w00t.  The only reason I care is because I get to hang out with friends tonight at a youth group Super Bowl party.  I could care less about the game (though if the Steelers win, that'd be trivially cool).

The future is facing me head on.  There is only so much "bubble" living you can do before it pops.  Bubble as in - you're not entirely financially responsible for yourself.  I'm still living in the bubble.  But the days and weeks and months stretch on, and the bubble is growing thinner and thinner as I get nearer and nearer graduation, and the *gasp*.... real world.

Then the faith really gets tested.  I can't wait.