"Please Excuse Me While I Edit Myself in Public"

In the words of my high school sophomore english teacher, please excuse me while I edit myself in public. I'm not the first to admit it, and this probably isn't the first time I've admitted it: I am by no means perfect. And thus, I'll restart this blog in its original direction with a fair amount of humility. Even though I'm going towards a less structured, more lackadaisical feel with this blog, I'm still finding myself drawn towards something that isn't just some mindless wondering. All of my wondering has purpose. I spent the better part of three hours explaining this idea, along with several others, to a friend rather recently. Granted, I do wonder about random, fairly pointless, stuff. But pretty soon it goes by the wayside.

Nah.... I'm still curious about God, and my Savior. So, sorry to those of you who were looking for something slightly more appealing to secular interests. I'm still probably not headed there with this blog. God is still reading, regardless of what I write, so I'd like it to be something a bit more glorifying to Him, rather than just figuratively throwing Him out the window with this blog, when right next door, I'm lauding Him. 'Twould be a bit hypocritical. I'll make no bones about it - I am still hypocritical, even when I don't mean to be. There may be a few posts on here He's not going to be particularly happy to see, but they'll be there, just because I'm another faulty human.

Thus the editing myself in public - I am a Christian, but I am still human, as are all of them. But I'd like to embrace the embodiment of Christian with a dynamic, pragmatic vantage point, rather than a Christian who is just as static as a rock stuck at the bottom of a river. So many more before me have wanted to be dynamic, pragmatic Christians, but I'm thinking many of them failed, or also got stuck. Life isn't meant to be static, as we're constantly changing - a lot of it beyond our control. So it only stands that our thoughts, words, and actions should change too.

The word metamorphosis comes to mind. It seems that's essentially what all of life is. I'm amazed though, that so many lives cannot do that very thing, and so often it is actually through their own actions that it is impossible to change.

I will not be impervious to change. People have told me it's human nature to not want change. I would like to politely disagree with them here. It's society's nature to not want to change, and so they've bogged us down in their protocol so as to impede us, when all most of us really want to do is break out of the protocol, and perhaps do something a bit more..... freeing.

So where was I going with this? Metamorphosis, digital coughing. My metamorphosis is the coughing. When you cough, you're changing - clearing the phlegm from your throat, and thus bettering yourself (or at least your esophagus). My coughing is digital - written out in pixelated form so that you may see my metamorphosis, my coughing, my betterment. In the header, I'm saying take notes - because life is one big, long test. It is. And you're free to take notes from me, if you so desire. On what to do, and quite possibly what NOT to do. Again - I'm not perfect, so I may be a wonderful example. (And in writing this, I'm feeling my imperfection staring me in the face. I feel as though I'm being quite self-centered, something I'm trying to shun.)

I hope that wasn't too terribly confusing, and that maybe you got something out of it. That is all, imperfections blaring or not, I have to say about that.